phew

had the 2nd beta done today and it was 126! good stuff, that's triple the 44.1 it was on friday :) i am feeling alot better now in the nervous department. baby h is growing and that is the best feeling ever. my dr. doesn't do a third beta, i believe they look at your 1st and 2nd numbers and if those are good you go from there. they may do more blood work come my 1st ultrasound which is 6/13. i am so excited for it! i really really really really hope we see the heartbeat :) that would make be feel even a thousand times better than i do right now. by my calculations, 12 weeks is technically 7/30, hooray! hoping that comes quickly, but in the meantime i am enjoying every moment and pushing the negative thoughts out the window :)

i am trying to decide whether or not to cancel our trip to wisconsin for the pearl jam music festival in early september. i just think i may be too tired, and not want to be sitting/standing out in the heat all day. that and the money .... between airfare, tickets, hotel and other things ... it's like a $1500 trip ... and i could use that money to save if we need it. i have to talk to j about it ... see what he thinks.... maybe wait on seeing my favorite band till they tour around here again.